Never give up trying to free your love.kls
I know you fully understand that.
Very passive-aggressive, really.
Thanks for the update!! It sounds like you've got a lot on your plate, and there's nothing like the taste of freedom, is there??
Scully
Yeah, the comment has some weird tones to it. I'd like to think it was just a case of "foot-n-mouth", but:
"out of the heart's abundance the mouth speaks" so I am not just dismissing it lightly
Real freedom is wonderful! It's amazing how wonderful the world and all of the people in it really are!
I am contemplating how the deferred happiness of the JW life - and the bare tolerance of their life on earth - affects the JW psyche.
jgnat
Well, after spending some time thinking about it, I realized that I was putting my ENTIRE life on hold for a raincheck [Paradise/New World/Big-A] that wasn't worth the paper you could print it on.
It was scary when I started thinking about what I have done with my life, putting it on hold. But it also is invigorating now living as though everyday of life is precious.
it's got to be tough...what do you talk about? Anyway, I wish you all the best in all of your endeavors with your wife, ... You know in your own heart that you are good...and all you can do is keep moving forward like you are doing.
Evesapple
Talk about?
Ummm, not religous issues, that's for sure. Although she does get in little digs here and there. I'm sure I do as well.
I guess we talk about the very moment we're in, and about why we still love each other.
I do ask about peopole at the KH and let her talk a bit to me about what's going on in FS or meetings. In return I talk about Aikido and my "worldly" friends.
What you mention is quite important to me. I am following my heart and trying to be true to it and the people I love and touch in my life. i want to look back when I'm on my death-bed and know that I always did all that I could for every situation without regrets for putting my own needs on hold. Tough balance at times.
things have been crazy for me.. and I have thought of ending it all
WF
Brenda,
I enjoyed meeting you and talking with you poolside. You can't end it all yet, you haven't published your book of poetry yet
Besides, I never asked for your email addy so I can send you those picks of that waitress you posed with. Remeber that woman at the diner?
There are a couple of great pics, you'll really like them!!!
PM me with you email addy when you get a chance!
Hang in there. You can't let life beat you down when you've made it so far after being in the WTS cult. You've survived more than most people are ever exposed to
I have friends that swear, have tattoos and drink.
Yeah, but I'm really not that scary in real life.
Rachel
my Snorting Princess,
You weren't supposed to fess up to being my friend on a public forum. I was trying to be discreet about that.
Yeah, there's a chance she can be won over in time. It's going better than I thought it might last you saw all of you in TX.
So who knows, right?
I hope your interest in buddhism gives you a greater sense of peace. Preston
I think it will.
I joined Aikido for numerous reasons, but I think that a spiritual aspect will be a main benefit.
I haven't fully explained this to my wife yet. She isn't aware of the religous aspects of the Art, & I didn't want to stir the pot anymore than I am. I just explain Aikido more as a recreational interest to me for now.
Tough situation to have to be married to somebody that doesn't trust you. czar
I just think of it as her cult personality making these judgements, and not her true authentic self seeing me this way.
I can typically look in her eyes and see right away which wife I am dealing with by her eyes. It's like dealing with someone who is possesed. I can't take what the cult identity says to me personally.
Hell, I may have said the same things to her if my wife left the WTS & I was the one who stayed in.
I thought she was packing up the weekend you were in Dallas. That shows a bit of promise for the future, perhaps. I hope so. Nina
Yes, that was a surprise to come home and find her stuff still in boxes but not moved out. That was certainly a pivotal point in the marraige, and things have been steadily improving since then.
Thanks for the congrats on the job.
I do think of you and Chris and the very 1st phone conversation I had with the both of you. I constantly bring up the both of you in my mind and think of the time waited for things to sort out. I do see my wife's attitude changing from what it was a year ago, so I have to say that I have more hope now than I do a year ago.
thx wanna, got it!